Sunday, December 26, 2010

Nyu Nyirs Revolutions

These are my "Nyu Nyirs Resolutions" -- the one's i will actually (try) to fulfill.


Every year i come up (and sometimes not come up) with a list of goals i need to attain during the incoming year. For 2010 i was too lazy and too mesmerized by my post-registration status (Employed) to even care about making one. But even without a list, i was able to accomplish some great and not-so-proud things for 2010 (pass the IELTS, be resourceful in the workplace, chickening out everytime i am faced with a 'dementor', start and never finish a job, etc. etc.) yyyet mostly on the latter part. :/
I am now faced with the challenge to set my life straight and maybe i will be printing this out in bold letters and stick it on my wall hoping that this will motivate me. But whatever the Universe will serve on my table, i shall eat it. If none of these goals will be fulfilled in 2011, i shall blame myself for not putting enough effort. . . i shall whip myself, join the procession to Calvary during Holy Week 2012, force myself to weep bloody tears. . .

So here's my list... Enjoy.

I have already jumpstarted this phase as early as the 2nd half of 2010 through my on and off love affair with the tracks. During my stint at the ER early 2010 i was in constant cardio and when i was rotated back to the ward, my entire system failed and i am back again to gaining weight. As of this writing i am still a Fast Food Junkie, an occasional binge-eater (no purging; i take pride on my refusal to recognize the constant partner of 'bingeing'), and a seasonal drinker/smoker ('seasonal" yes). I have this list i posted on my wall which i shall call my "SexyBack Manifesto" which is aimed on, well, getting fit! On 2011... wait, since this phase has already commenced, it would be appropriate to state that starting tomorrow i will be going to the tracks 5-6x a week for 30 minute walks/runs. The only exceptions for my failure to stick in this regimen would be sickness, tiredness, and contrasting work schedules. I will be gradually rehabilitating myself from this addiction to Fast Food, in hopes of bringing down my Tg level. The main goal for this is controlling my blood pressure. I shall also utilize my EMS privileges through a total work-up. :)

My life is relatively chaotic... my room, laundry, files, computer, everything! I am just so thankful that i leave this part of me inside the house. For 2011 i will be adopting a softcore OCD lifestyle. I will (try to) sort out the littlest components of my physical world, from my CV to the files in my computer to the items in my room, which is really not that much. I will learn how to dispose of unwanted items, (and replace them with newer, better things... chos! hehe) and organize everything to the tiniest detail. . . and i shall not bitch and moan about how difficult and time consuming and troublesome it is to do this. I will periodically evaluate and re-evaluate myself if i progressed or regressed.

Aside from heaving a relatively chaotic life, mine's also going down in a spiral motion back to Earth. . . but at a pretty slow to medium pace. How did i come up with that assessment? Simple, the fact that almost everyone in my batch have already achieved something and i am sadly one of those who haven't YET. I kept on saying that i am still waiting for my rocket to come. But it suddenly struck me when someone told me to "build my rocket" and "not just wait for it". I am not saying that i am not doing anything, in fact i have done some things already in order for that rocket to arrive. Yet i realized that as embarrassing as it may sound, i do not put much effort in building my rocket. Let us just say that when it would usually require welding to build a sturdy rocket, i only use duct tape or kanin paste build mine. This also translates to the smallest things in my life such as a photoediting project. I tend to get distracted by a lot of things most of the time while doing something, and i usually have a lot of excuses for not finishing them on time. So coming 2011, i shall start from my CV working my way up to a Work Visa to an overseas destination. And perhaps by the 2nd or 3rd quarter of the incoming year i will be able to share whatever i earn to my family, which i still fail and sometimes refuse to do even though i already have a paying job. :P

I realized that with my relatively sufficient salary of P 7,700.00 per month as a Contracted Nurse, about 100% of it is being spent... and that continued even after i paid my utangs from my mum (payment for items i bought using her credit card account hehehe). I believe 2011 is the time for me to redeem my financial self and be a nurse slash junior accountant. I have plans for 2011, one of them is to have advanced trainings in order for me to heighten up my credentials. (ACLS Training would give you an edge... i think...) I can not afford to ask for financial assistance again from my mum. I want to try gradually detaching myself from the cord that once attached us... at least try to be independent even in financial matters at the least. I shall go back to basics on this one. Back when i was still in the 4th grade. When cassette tapes are still the bomb. I would save up a portion of my lunch money then for cassette tapes because i would not want my mum to sustain my own vices, i mean "wants". Usually by the end of the month, i would have usually earned enough money to buy 2 cassette tapes with some spare to spend 1-2 hours in a Playstation Shop (kinda like RPG Cafe's for DOTA, WOW, Flyff etc. now but back then we played PS games). Now, instead of earning for cassette tapes, i shall be earning for training fees, transportation fees, accommodation fees (since i will be planning to have those trainings in Manila) etc. Props to a good friend of mine for giving me this idea.

I think one of my main weaknesses is that i am too nice... I THINK. :/ Am i nice? I developed a habit of always saying "sorry" or "thank you" when it comes to minor or unimportant matters, and i think it is moderately dragging my self-esteem down. I believe what i needed for 2011 is an ego-boost. I think i need to tone down on the nice attitude just a little bit. I assessed that i am already losing some of it ever since i started working, yet i believe my assessment may have been inaccurate... I shall be shedding off once and for all every nice bone or muscle in my body and be a cold-blooded, position-hungry, mothafocka... or i can just at least be civil to every person. (although i don't know how to manifest such).

I am already sleepy, it's almost 5 am, so i really need to publish this one now.
I end this post with the word


Wednesday, September 15, 2010


'mum still does laundry'
'only dates guys in a rock band'
'left at the altar'
'runaway bride/groom'
'possesive bf/gf'
'still in love with ex'
'has daddy/mommy issues'

As i was watching the HIMYM season 5 episode 'The Wedding Bride', I started thinking about what my 'baggage' is. The reality is, no matter how much we deny, suppress, or even regress it, we all have baggages. Baggages come in all shapes and sizes. It may be an emotional baggage, or superficial such as a physical insecurity, or it could be something serious-mental/psychological. So i pose this question in this not so lengthy post: What's your baggage? I know that i have one, i dont know if it's common, but i think i may have commitment issues.. I dont want to go into details how i figured this one out, but i assure you, its something i have been ignoring all these years. Plus, im still on the 'blind' lookout for someone who can ride my flow. So now, feel free to comment on this and spread ze werd....

Fun fact: this the 2nd blog i published using my phone. The 1st one's in my facebook account. (:

Thursday, August 12, 2010

The Five Things I Learned, So Far, in My 24 Years of Existence

Originally meant to be a post for August 2010, i failed to publish it for unknown/forgotten reason. The original title was "The Five Things I Learned, So Far, In My 23 Years of Existence". So basically i just changed "23" to "24" since i am 24 now. But after reviewing this, these things still apply.

So we learn a lot of things as we interact with this world, which is basically the reason why we exist; so a lot of us are still crawling in the dark when it comes to finding our true potentials, which is essentially why we still do not cease to, well, exist; so i finally decided to put up the five (important) things i learned so far in my 24 years of interacting with this world...and this shall grow along the way.
The world is subjective, this is how i view it.

Numero Uno
There is no such thing as a "born leader".
Nobody interacts perfectly with this world. The world, as cliche as it may sound, is a harsh place. One day you are at the top of your game, the next day you are sinking rapidly at the bottom of this world's annals. I have had my experience of both worlds in the past and in the present. And although it may not be the best experience, it is most definitely a very meaningful one. Anyone who would want to refute this have not experienced the world's full wrath yet. (def. "Born Leader" - one who is superior to everyone in this race called world interaction......marathon)

Numero Dos
If you do not like what most people are going gaga for, you are either a hipster or a douche...or a combination of both: a Hipstouche
I remember using the term "hipster" referring to those morons in ASAP. Then i realized that those chimps are not hipster, they only dress and/or look like hipster. A hipster is a person who goes beyond or to the opposite of mainstream. And those gorillas are reeking mainstream. If you consider yourself "indie" then you may well be a hipster. Hipsters are criticized for being major douchebags since hipsters are sometimes known to spread douchiness. But those are the idiot hipsters. I do not like mainstream that much, i pretend to like mainstream for the benefit of the lower mortals... i mean, my friends (hehehe >:D) So... yeah i can definitely say that i am a hipster. (Got any problem with that? Because i will use my pseudovegan telekinesis on you!)

Numero Tres
Not everyone who speaks properly/well is included in the "elite" league of superior humans...if there is one in the first place.
As i mentioned above, there is no such thing as a "born leader". So a person speaks carabao english or has a speech defect. It does not mean that he's stupid. We shall never know what goes inside a person's head unless we ourselves experience it first-hand. And besides a lot of great speakers are just that, "great speakers". They just spread douchiness in this world and their main presence deprives us of safe air to breathe. Yes, i'm partially referring to the monkeys on TV.

Numero Quatro
It is better to just shut-up than alienate the people around you and end up being the odd one out.
Not everyone interacts with this world the same way as some people do. Having "weird" interests - as some called it - placed me in awkward conversations in the past, so whenever i feel like relating my "weird" interests to a certain topic during conversations, i just usually resort to encasing my thoughts instead of making a fool out of myself. That is why i am always on the lookout for someone who shares the same interests as me... always on the lookout. (and someday that creature will come and entertain me -- "creature" yes, i believe in life beyond this Universe) But i learned that too much restriction can rob you of your personality - as pointed out to me by my cousin years ago.

Numero Cinco
Learn to trust everybody you interact with in this world.
I do not see the credibility in the common version of this. I think not all people lie, and if they do lie it is mainly because they are protecting something. Don't get me wrong, i absolutely am a fan of House and his philosophies or "Houseisms" or whatever you would want to call it but i just do not think it is necessary to cover yourself with electric barbed wires everytime. I learned that if you trust someone, that person will do the same. It is pretty basic actually, it is the Golden Rule. I personally believe that the whole world will be a much better place if we all learn to trust the people we interact with everyday.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Rules To Live By (a.k.a. Pilosopos of Eriko)

I thought Zombieland was one of the best movies i have ever seen... ever. And i think the rules on how to survive in that fictional world is awesome. Which prompted me to make some rules of my own on how to live or survive in this "unnatural world" as i would like to call it. This post will be constantly updated, there will be some additions and omissions along the way since my ideas are always dynamic and ever-changing. But a word of warning though, this may not apply to everyone and i strongly suggest you readers not to take everything written here seriously. We are, after all, unique beings breathing the same components in this unnatural world, but the way we utilize its resources will always be subjected on how we perceive it.

Rule # 1: When going out, always remember to bring the following with you (or stick in your bag, whichever you prefer): a folded umbrella, a pen, and a pocketbook/manga/magazine. You will never know when you'll get stuck under the burning sun/ pouring rain/ in a traffic jam/ with a boring person or a combination of the aforementioned OR when you will be required to write something down like an important person's number, a form you need to fill-in etc.

Rule # 2: Do not fake something unless necessary. Remember the story of the boy who cried wolf? I used not to take that too seriously since i see myself as someone who rarely does that, but when you started doing it, it actually can become a habit and next thing you knew, the wolves are coming after you wanting to take a big bite off your butt. I started a habit of "calling in sick" whenever i find it troublesome or (mostly) indolent to go to work, and only about half of my excuses are true. And when i really become sick i force myself to go to work because i think i already "maxed out" on my "call in sick" powers/privileges. So now, i learned my lesson: that whatever you wish will most definitely come true.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Who invited who?

Out of boredom i googled PGMA and clicked the article about her in Wiki. While reading the first part of the article, i came across a sentence which enlightened my day.

"In 1987 she was invited by President Corazon Aquino to join the government as Assistant Secretary of the Department of Trade and Industry."

It was the Late President Aquino who introduced President Gloria to the dirty world of politics all along.

I know Wiki is not that reliable as a source of information. The Aquino Camp may also have another story to this, or maybe it has always been a plan of PGMA to step into his Dad's shoes someday when she was younger, but that part of the article really hit me in the most strange way that made me utter "Oh the irony!".

"The muse of Philippine Democracy gave birth to the Most-Hated President in Philippine history."

I have nothing against PGMA. I still think she is one of the most intelligent individuals ever to rule the land. She really stretched the capabilities of her position pretty well. (Yeah, she
REALLY did!) She may have acted stupidly under pressure, but overall she handled herself pretty well. And yes, i'm still going to stand by to what i told my friends a couple of years back, that i have faith in PGMA.


To read the rest of the article about her in Wiki (i think it won't be necessary to put the link, but i'm doing it anyway) here's the link:

*NB: This was originally a Note i posted in FaceBook last 08 May 2010 @ 13:55. I just thought it would be interesting to include it here.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

8-Bit Wedding Invitation

My good friend, Tina, who is going to get married this July, assigned me the rigorous task of designing/coming up with a kick-ass wedding invitation. As i was Googling for "unique", "unconventional", "cute", yet "simple" designs, i came across this beauty.

Nostalgia struck me when i saw this 8-bit Video Game-inspired wedding invitation. I suddenly remember the days when "Game & Watch" was like the 'bomb', and finishing Mario in the original Nintendo game console is a huge achievement. My hat's off to whoever conceptualized something as awesome as this.

Eating Cereals

I made this sketch yesterday afternoon after eating cereals for lunch. I drew it behind one of the pages of my research paper draft (hence the visible letters chorba).

This is not me sharing my bowl cereals to an invisible cat.

It's a new day once again. I think i'm going to have cereals for lunch for the second day in a row. :)

Wednesday, June 9, 2010


Is it a sin to be addicted to the internet? Did the internet transformed itself into the latest drug? Some may have already been recovering from the addiction the internet brings and yet i am assuming that everyday a lot of people are being introduced to its addictive properties. Am i a victim of the internet's seductive poison?

I may be. It came into full realization when i discovered that i have been spending too much time searching for "how to's" in Google and YouTube. From complex things such as "how to hack your mobile phone to avail of free internet" (my brain's still bleeding from this one) to the simpler ones such as "how to stop bleeding post-tooth extraction" (i mean, it's a no-brainer, just apply pressure to the pulp using a clean gauze or cotton ball). Too much "how to" searches and i will be starting to forget that i have a common sense. Another thing is, I have been basing my decisions too much on what i see in the internet. Such as, which movie to watch or which food to eat. It's like the internet is taking over by brain! And the worse thing is, just like most drugs, the internet is depriving me of sleep. I saw awhile ago in BBC that the light from your computer monitor or laptop can cause sleep deprivation. I attest to that. A lot of ongoing and future projects are being postponed because of the internet. I promised myself that during this 3-week break i will be finishing/starting those projects and yet here i am rubbing my nose to the screen of my laptop. I would always wake up each day with it on stand-by mode (if i continue this, i will be putting my laptop in a risky situation leading to its early retirement), wherein a simple slide of my index finger on the pointer would bring it back again to life. It may have also been the reason why the electric bill is going up (i still blame the TV set to compensate) according to Mamang's standards (lol).

Physical and Psychological dependence, sleep deprivation, social isolation- i really am a victim caught in the internet's web. Or am i just a person who blames the internet in order to escape the real problem... myself.

I will be making a pact with myself that i shall accomplish and/or commence those projects i have waiting in my disk by giving myself 24 hours of abstinence from the internet. It may be tomorrow or the day after tomorrow or any day during my leave as long as i make it a point that i will do this before i start reporting for work again. I will prove to myself that "i am not an addict (maybe it's a lie), i am not an addict."

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Another Famous Untooned Cartoon

And here is Naruto!

Awesome right?! :D

Oh Yeah Cartoons

A few hours ago i stumbled upon a video in YouTube from pixeloo which showed the "untooning" of Jessica Rabbit from Who Framed Roger Rabbit. "Untooning" is the rendering of a cartoon character into a 3D form with photorealistic details while retaining its cartoon-like proportions. It can be achieved using photoediting software and it usually takes a lot of time, patience, and a keen eye for detail. Below is the video i saw...

As Barney Stinson would say it: "Challenge accepted!!"
I will challenge myself to replicate something as awesome as that. I will be posting the photo soon and maybe a video. But not too soon. Just soon. An indefinite soon. hehe :D

Prez Noynoy's First Lady

Newly-elect Philippine President Noynoy Aquino will be the first "single" president in Philippine history. Yes, he may be currently dating Councilor Shalani Soledad, the Christine Reyes dead ringer and hot 'shawarma', but that does not count unless they tie the knot prior to his Oath of Office.

We've seen the better half of our past presidents.

Ever wondered what Noynoy's First Lady would be like?

And no, it's not Miss Shalani...

Lady Noynoy

A hybrid of Lady Gaga and Noynoy.


Monday, May 31, 2010


A lot of things happened this May.

I just turned 23. I practiced my rights as a Filipino by voting for someone whom i truly believe could change the way Filipinos think of ourselves (unfortunately he lost). 2 weeks ago I filed for a 3-week leave of absence from my job in preparation for an examination i will be taking this June... but mainly because i want to take a break and reflect on the rapid unfolding of events which happened to my life during this past 2 years since i got out of college. I have officially isolated myself from television. And on the last day, i had the impulse to start a blog.

The first post is the hardest to write. I already have a blog in my Multiply account, but it is starting to rot already. I remember the first post i wrote there. Some random "hey this is my blog" stuff which, going backs, sounds a bit retarded. So i am going to take this opportunity to correct my past mistake. I will be writing what i will be writing in this blog.

Yes, the never-ending "bitchin' and moanin'" about how screwed-up work is. I was unfortunate enough to enter a career i am not that too keen about. My only consolation is that i learn almost everyday... about my field, the people around me mainly their personalities, and life. And yeah, i am able to sustain my vices. Haha


My world will not be complete without music. It is my ultimate passion and yet i am too lazy to actually reach it. I now see that "ultimate passion" getting ahead of me for like a kilometer or 2 already.


You see how contradicting i can be? I just mentioned earlier that i am television-free already. Take that literally. But it doesn't mean that if i rarely or don't watch television, i have no exposure to TV shows. That's why i love the internet. It's got everything in it. My laptop is my TV.

Random Stuff

Yeah, just random stuff. It can be something hilarious as Noynoy dressed as Lady GaGa, revealing as the Wowowee girls' outfits, serious as Frankl's search for meaning, outrageous as Erap being #2 in the nationwide polls, etc. Just random stuff.

Let me end this by welcoming you to my world. A word of warning though, to quote a good friend of mine "To be honest, i'm a liar". But i am not a naturally good liar. :B