I'M THINKING OF GETTING A...

I've been thinking... i'm already 24, still single, still laboring over my underpaid~overworked job in a government hospital, and up until now i haven't really proven something for myself. I remember a week ago when a good friend of mine, Cess came home from Manila. I don't know how it happened but the topic on getting inked came up. She asked me if i wanna have one, i was like "are you kidding me? i have always wanted to have one for a very long time na." I told her that i was planning to have one on my wrist, preferably left, or maybe on my forearm. She asked me what will i get if ever, i got stuck for a moment after that, i have been yearning to get a tattoo for ages already and still i haven't yet decided what to get! I just told her the first thing that came to mind, "a quote from a book/lyrics to song/line from a poem i haven't found yet". Then she told me what she want to have and where she's planning to get it, and said that we should get one soon, and soon would be that day or the day after. I said "no way, i need to pass medicals first before i get one." Then the topic drifted off to something remotely related to the last one.

I've been thinking.... tattoos are an expression of a wearer's feelings, a physical representation of his/her inspiration embedded on the skin. It being permanent manifests that once you let that buzzing needle touch your skin, there's no turning back, what was done was done, and there's no way of erasing it... well, you can have outrageously expensive sessions of laser removal, but that only removes the outside, what about the emotions, the impulse that got you there in the first place? That's practically as permanent as the tattoo itself. So I figured if i'm going to have one, a text tattoo that is, i won't be quoting Pablo Neruda or Bob Ong, no matter how beautiful or witty the words are, since these people haven't touched my life yet. I won't be placing lyrics from an epically wonderful song from a random artist since that artist's music did not save me at all. This is very much in contrary to what i told Cess, "......i haven't found yet."

I've been thinking..... if i will be getting one i will be fishing out from one of the thousands of magical insights from the Harry Potter books. Because basically HP have been my life ever since i sneak the hardbound edition of the books from the College library to my Chemistry class when i was in High School, and read it instead of jotting down notes/listening to my teacher. It took me to a lot of places and further enriched my imagination. If i will be getting one i will be embedding a "magical" text in Ancient Egyptian hieroglyph (or maybe the hieroglyph "ankh" which means "immortality") because eversince i was a child, who used to watch Ancient Egypt documentaries in NGC and Discovery, i have always believed that i was an Ancient Egyptian in my past life. If i will be getting one i will have an esoteric symbol, something only bonafide fanboys & girls will recognize. Which gave me the idea of getting the runic symbols of the Deathly Hallows on my wrist or posterior forearm. But not now... like i mentioned to Cess a week ago: "i need to pass medicals first before i'll get one."

Addictive

Is it a sin to be addicted to the internet? Did the internet transformed itself into the latest drug? Some may have already been recovering from the addiction the internet brings and yet i am assuming that everyday a lot of people are being introduced to its addictive properties. Am i a victim of the internet's seductive poison?

I may be. It came into full realization when i discovered that i have been spending too much time searching for "how to's" in Google and YouTube. From complex things such as "how to hack your mobile phone to avail of free internet" (my brain's still bleeding from this one) to the simpler ones such as "how to stop bleeding post-tooth extraction" (i mean, it's a no-brainer, just apply pressure to the pulp using a clean gauze or cotton ball). Too much "how to" searches and i will be starting to forget that i have a common sense. Another thing is, I have been basing my decisions too much on what i see in the internet. Such as, which movie to watch or which food to eat. It's like the internet is taking over by brain! And the worse thing is, just like most drugs, the internet is depriving me of sleep. I saw awhile ago in BBC that the light from your computer monitor or laptop can cause sleep deprivation. I attest to that. A lot of ongoing and future projects are being postponed because of the internet. I promised myself that during this 3-week break i will be finishing/starting those projects and yet here i am rubbing my nose to the screen of my laptop. I would always wake up each day with it on stand-by mode (if i continue this, i will be putting my laptop in a risky situation leading to its early retirement), wherein a simple slide of my index finger on the pointer would bring it back again to life. It may have also been the reason why the electric bill is going up (i still blame the TV set to compensate) according to Mamang's standards (lol).

Physical and Psychological dependence, sleep deprivation, social isolation- i really am a victim caught in the internet's web. Or am i just a person who blames the internet in order to escape the real problem... myself.

I will be making a pact with myself that i shall accomplish and/or commence those projects i have waiting in my disk by giving myself 24 hours of abstinence from the internet. It may be tomorrow or the day after tomorrow or any day during my leave as long as i make it a point that i will do this before i start reporting for work again. I will prove to myself that "i am not an addict (maybe it's a lie), i am not an addict."

Oh Yeah Cartoons

A few hours ago i stumbled upon a video in YouTube from pixeloo which showed the "untooning" of Jessica Rabbit from Who Framed Roger Rabbit. "Untooning" is the rendering of a cartoon character into a 3D form with photorealistic details while retaining its cartoon-like proportions. It can be achieved using photoediting software and it usually takes a lot of time, patience, and a keen eye for detail. Below is the video i saw...

As Barney Stinson would say it: "Challenge accepted!!"

I will challenge myself to replicate something as awesome as that. I will be posting the photo soon and maybe a video. But not too soon. Just soon. An indefinite soon. hehe :D